Yesterday I had a moment of truth. I received the final edits for my book. I’ve been talking to friends, family, and coworkers about this book for the last several months. I’ve been working with my editor, too, anxious to be in possession of the final version. Yesterday, quite unexpectedly, I received it. I thought I would have at least another week before the ball was fully in my court.
This was not the case. In an instant what I’d wished for was here. A bout of apprehension overwhelmed me and I swallowed hard. Am I ready to share my story with the public? I thought. Doubt, yes, but not about the quality of my writing or the inspirational merit of my stories and insights. No, fear of being vulnerable, of putting my story out there for the world to read. My stuff out in the open.
This moment is what I’ve been waiting for over the last five months. Now that it is here, hesitation has found its way back to me. Even I, the bold courage catalyst, still get to work through these feelings. Will I go through the final phases and actually publish my book? Of course I will. I’ve told too many people about it. Besides, if I didn’t, I’d be letting myself down too.
This apprehension was not something I anticipated I would still have to deal with. Slight and fleeting as my hesitation was it speaks to the fact that the journey into boldness through doubt is a continuing one. It gets easier to move through, though.
My stories, the discovery exercises, and the insights you’ll come to realize from reading my book are all important reasons for me to finish what I’ve started, work through my feelings of vulnerability, and publish this book. I know you will find benefit in reading Growing Bold: How to Overcome Fear, Build Confidence, and Love the Life you Live.
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